Thursday, December 25, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
I really don't know what to think about all this snow. I love it, but I hate it. Well...hate is a strong word...I dislike it with a passion. There we go :)
Anyways, I mean I love to play in the snow with people and with my dog. And its cool cause we're gonna have a white Christmas. But then there's the downside to it. It just gets in the way of so many plans. Like today I had to work at 7:30, so I had to walk. The roads were extremely slippery, causing me to fall once and almost fall multiple times. My wrist is still a bit sore. Then after work I was supposed to go to the church for a youth event, but couldn't get a ride out there cause my mom's car isn't good in the snow. I'm really hoping it doesn't snow so much that we won't be able to get to the christmas eve service. That would really suck!
Well thats all I really have to say for the time being. I have to go clean my room >_<>
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Today I (Forgive me Lord!) missed church to sleep because I woke up feeling like crud x 10! Then at 1 I had my hair appointment at Roots for my grad photos. A couple of my close friends were in there at the same time, so that was cool. My stylist was Andrew and he was really nice. Then I went to the school and met Sarah there. We spent the whole afternoon there getting group shots done and, of course, our individual ones with the cap and gown, plus some casual ones and I also got some with my saxophone. Russel came in so I got a couple with him as well. I got to look at them after and I was seriously blown away, as were my friends. I was surprised at how good they were. I will get some up on here/Facebook as soon as I get them.
I still can't believe I'm graduating in 6 months!!
Well I think thats all I have to say for now :P
Saturday, December 6, 2008
It's just so hard to comprehend, especially with the big accident last month. This one was different though because alcohol was involved. I don't understand why people drink and drive. I just don't understand why people drink at all. My mom, being the youth counselor at Highland, got these goggles that have been "blurred" to what it would look like at different levels of alcohol in your blood. I tried them on and it was crazy. The highest one (i can't remember the percentage) was next to unbearable! I felt sick to my stomach. I wouldn't want to even move like that, forget about driving! There's so many people who drink that think its fine and don't pay any attention to it. "I'm a great driver" or "I'm not going that far, it'll be fine" or "I only had a little to drink" or "It's only one extra person, no big deal". They don't realize this is the kind of mistake that destroys lives. You hear it in the news, statistics, people getting badly injured or killed. Because of what? Because of drivers who don't take the matter seriously enough. Alcohol slows down your reflexes and even just a split second decision while driving could cost someone their lives. And its not just the people in the vehicle that are in danger, its people in other vehicles or pedestrians. Why wait until something happens to stop drinking? Why take the risk? It's not worth it.
RIP Kevin Richard Baker
Here's the link to more pictures of the crash scene. I warn you though, they are not pleasant.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Saturday..wow...where to start?! The morning service was phenominal..you'd think that early in the morning a bunch of kids and teenagers would be slow and sluggish..but no..it was the opposite. Pastor Ira spoke again and was, again, awesome. Then we had a workshop..I went to Pastor Matt's on Politics in Canada and we had a guest speaker..Craig Millar..so it was cool to hear from him. Then it was lunch and another workshop. This time I went to Pastor Mike's on Evangelism. It was also really good. After that we had another service with some worship and then we broke into our youth groups. Our youth group then split into our Cadres. It was really neat to be able to talk to some of the girls, ones i've known for years and some I just met this weekend. We went around and said something that stood our to us or impacted us so far. Then we prayed and played the Human Knot game :P. And then..DINNER!! A lot of people went to BP, including a group of 10 of us. That was fun..then it was back to the church for more hang out time and another service.
Now, everyone knows the second evening service is always the one that something BIG happens..and this time was no different. Pastor Ben spoke and definitly kept everyones attention! Worship was amazing (as it was ALL weekend!) and then at the end during the ministry time..wow. There were people just crying out to God, being filled with the Holy Spirit and just loving Him. I prayed for a lot of people and some of those girls..they just fill my heart with pride..I loved watching them all weekend and it was great to hear them say they looked up to me. At the end of the whole service, we cleaned up (while some students were still at the alter!) and then went home around 11:30ish. This morning was also really good..Pastor Ben spoke again and during worship, me and Matt went up to the front and were soon followed by most of the youth. It was great!
So all in all..this weekend was amazing. I admit I wasn't really expecting a lot to happen with ME personally, but having the privilege to spend time with these people and pray for some of the younger girls..its just an amazing feeling. I think thats all I have to say..for now ;P
A HUGE thank you to everyone who helped put this conference on..it was a great blessing!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
So all in all, tonight was really good. It was nice to have something to take my mind off recent situations. It's still hard..I see his picture and it makes my heart hurt..I still can't believe he's gone, but its getting easier.
Monday, November 3, 2008
I've been praying like crazy..for Zach's family, Abby, Jordan..the other students involved in the accident, everyone who was affected by this. As I was reading my bible, I found a couple verses.
Psalm 71:20-21 - Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.
Revelation 21:4 - He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."
These verses really gave me peace and comfort. I know that Zach is better now...free of pain. And I know everyone else is going to make a full recovery. God is here in the situation and has been all along. He will heal and He will provide. All we need to do is trust in Him. It hurts to say goodbye to Zach..but its not the last time I'll see him. One day, when it's my time, I know he'll be there waiting for me.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Zach's on life support in vic general. he's braindead, with no activity all last night. if there's no change, they're gonna pull the plug today.
3:30pm *I'm not sure if all of this is correct, but its what I've heard*
Bobbi is in a coma and if she doesnt wake up soon they dont know if shes gunna be okay
Katey got burns and cuts on her face but shes okay now
Jordan broke both her ankles
Hailey broke both her legs and pelvis..its gonna be a lot of therapy for her
matt broke his cheek bone
Abby(the driver) is fine and so is ryan
I heard its possible that Bobbi woke up today
I've been told they pulled the plug on Zach..not 100% sure though
They made the decision to pull the plug at about 4:30..Zach is now with God. Everyone else is going to be fine though.
Thank you for all your prayers and support.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Well I think I've written enough.. :P
17 DAYS TILL CONSUMED!!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
So a friend informed me that I haven't blogged in a bit..so I decided that as I sit here in the library during my spare, I would blog. I'll just recap my week and week to come.
Last night was the Jazz Cabaret at my school. Six groups performed, including our Jazz Band and Vocal Jazz, Vanier's Jazz Band and Vocal Jazz, Isfeld's Jazz Band and a special treat, a choir from Wales. Everyone performed really well. Our teachers kept saying it wasn't a competition, but if it was, we totally won. Just putting that out there :P I had a solo in Jazz Band and played it perfectly. I was very happy and got many compliments afterwards, a few even from the Wales choir! The highlight of the night, however, was when my teacher came up the steps to the stage to conduct, she tripped on the last step and just about fell on the front row of saxaphones. She landed on her knees and sorta caught herself on a stand. It was quite hilarious. She's fine though..a little bruise on the knee I believe. The only thing that sucked about the concert last night, was that I missed Cadres, but there will be more.
Andrea is coming today!!! If you don't know, she is my BEST friend and has been since grade 6. She moved to Surrey at the end of grade 10, which really sucks. But she's coming to visit. Sadly, I don't actually get to see her till friday, because of Youth Group and work. But we're going out for breakfast and then probably go shopping for a bit on friday.
FRIDAY!! OMIGOSH so excited! Even though its only one night, Youth Rally is gonna be SA-WEET! I'm just so stoked to see camp people again. And I love traveling places..even short distances :P. I wanted to go to the Ladies Conference, but I don't have the moola right now..and I have work too and could only book off so much time. But that's alright..it'll still be good.
So I think thats all I have to say right now. That's pretty much my life in the last week in a nutshell.
*That's "Later Gators!!" in Webdings :)
Monday, October 13, 2008
Every sermon I hear affects me in some way. They always do..but this one really hit hard. I have been guilty of telling people to "follow your heart" and I too have listened to this "advice". 1 Peter 5:7 says "Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you." Looking at my life and the way I lead my heart, at times I see I have not been doing the best I can. I have sometimes feared that He will do something I don't like...but that's not true. I now see that I need to completely and fully put my heart in God's hands, because He will always be there to teach me how to lead my own heart and He will never do anything with it to hurt me. I am learning how to lead my heart and I am happy with the way things are going right now. I have an amazing family, friends, boyfriend, job, schooling...life. I'd say I'm doing pretty good! But i know that if I ever struggle (and I know I will!) that when I turn around, no matter how far I get, God will always be there, heart in hand, waiting to catch me if ever I fall.
Only one as great as you
Could create such wonders
So many times we turn away
But you never leave our side
We boast to those around
The love of the Lord Almighty
We wear the Belt of Truth
And the Shield of Faith
And we give our all to you
No more holding back
No more fear
Thanking you for all you've done
We humble ourselves and praise
Thursday, October 9, 2008
I am so so so SOOOO stoked for Consumed!! I don't even know exactly whats happening yet, but just knowing that its coming is getting me syked! I am also excited for this Sunday. The service is gonna be AMAZING and then I get to go to Nanaimo and see a bunch of family. It's gonna be great.
Going kayaking tomorrow morning, so I should wrap it up and head to bed soon.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
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Wednesday, October 1, 2008
It was sad to leave homewood on friday, but now i can't wait for our youth retreat. A few of the staff members are stoked too cause not only am i going back, but some of my jazz friends want to come on the retreat too, so thats awesome.
Can't really think of anything else to say at the moment..plus I'm getting kicked off the computer. So I will add more another time.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
A year has gone by
Since you went away.
It seems like just yesterday
I saw you smiling.
I hear music
And your laughter fills my ears.
I think of the days
We sat and told stories.
As I sit here and remember
My heart and soul mourn.
What I'd do to see you again
Just one more day is all I ask
But you're better up there
So keep dancing with Jesus
And I'll see you again someday.
Until then, Rest In Peace
My Gaurdian Angel <3
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Thursday, September 11, 2008
So last night was our big Kick-Off for youth group. The biggest thing was saying goodbye to Fusion/Shift and hello to THRIVE YOUTH CHURCH!! As all the students went into the sanctuary, us leaders ran into the pre-service prayer/masters/green room and put on our awesome red leaders shirts. (did i mention that these shirts are awesome? Great job, Kels!) Then as Jay went up to talk, we all went in and stood up on the stage. When he introduced the new name, Russel and Randy took off the old banners and a sweet picture went up on the screens. The kids were pretty loud as they cheered! It was so awesome. The worship was AMAZING, the sermon was AMAZING, and the hang out time was..well...AMAZING! I just love our youth group..words can't describe how proud I am of all of us and how excited I am to see everyone grow and walk with God so much more.
I step into the background,
Smile on my face as I watch.
Everyone laughing and joyful,
Loving each other and God.
I can't express the way
All this makes me feel.
Anxious for the future
Excited about the now.
So proud of my family
As they grow all around
Just be patient
And you'll see a miracle
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Yesterday was a long day too. I was down at Lewis Park from 9-3:30 helping at Kids Fest. That was tons of fun..really hott though. I handed out balloons for most of it and got my picture taken by a few people..so I might be in the paper! Then after that me and Russel went to Tuscanos for dinner and I had the best ceasar salad I have ever had. I was really tired though and when I got home I went on the computer for a bit and then went to bed.
Today at church I gave a testimony in first service, which wasn't as nerve-wracking as talking to the theatre people cause I've spoken infront of the church before. After church me, Steph, Russel and Matt walked to Wendy's for lunch and then walked back to the church. My feet were DEAD! Got home, went outside for a bit and then flopped on my bed. Closed my eyes and when I opened them (which felt like 5 minutes later) an hour and a half had passed. Woot for Power Naps! Also watched a movie called Not My Life which was really good.
On a final note...I'M SO STOKED FOR KICK-OFF!!!!!!
Ok one more final note..i was searching videos on youtube, and i found probably my favourite Veggie Tales songs. I can't figure out how to post a video on here...so I'll just leave the link.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
We got out at 2, but I had to hang around cause I had a driving lesson at 3:15. So I hung out with a friend (Heather) and we had a pretty good talk about people changing and whatnot. It was good. Then I had my driving lesson which was better than good. I did everything right and she said I'm pretty much ready for my test, so I am excited. Pray that I pass!!
Well thats all I really have to say for now..sooo...
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
With you in my arms,
I just want to fall asleep,
Dream with you,
You and me forever
Its not about finding somebody
That makes you smile
Its about looking for the one
That makes your heart
Sing its own love song
Looking into your eyes
Everything else fades away
All thats left is you and me
Together for enternity
Sunday, August 31, 2008
After church a group of us (me, Madison, Mandy, Sarah, Marika, Steph, Russel, Matt and Jesse) all walked to Wendy's for lunch. Quite a few other people from church were there too, no surprise! Then we (minus Marika, Steph and Matt) went up to Petland and the dollar store and Winners, which was also fun. At winners i bought myself and Madison (against her will) new bags which are AMAZING! :P
So after today I realized how much fun it can be to just hang out with friends and not have a set plan. I love my friends!!
We make relationships everyday
Some last an hour
Others for a lifetime
I live for the tears
That make me smile
I live for the moments
That never end
I live for the dreams
That are coming true
With everything I am
And with everything I do
I live for my friends
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Camp was amazing. Thats the best way to put it. Each night I was touched by what the speaker said and what God said. Especially the last night...I don't think I've cried that much in a long time. And it really showed me how amazing God is and how lucky I am to have such great friends. A special thank-you goes out to PC. You showed me so much this week and I am just blessed to know you and to have the chance to talk to you. When you prayed for me the last night, I felt such a reasurrance in my heart and soul. So thank you for always being there for me.
Everything else at camp was fun too. The first day was a little let down at first cause of the rain, and some complications with people, but other than that it was fine. My team, Tongues of Fire, was amazing. Its true we didn't win a lot, but we still had fun and got along. Memorizing bible verses, painting our scroll, building our boat, playing games like kickball, volleyball and water polo with a watermelon wrapped in duck tape..ahhh good times. And, if you didn't already know, I got kicked in the jaw during water polo, but its not really swollen or bruised anymore :D. Clash day, bad hair day and costume day were also tons of fun. So all in all, it was a great week. I made new friends and my relationships with old friends grew stronger. I can't wait for next year.
P.S. To all those people who said it would be fun, you were right. But I will NOT say its better than Nanoose! :P
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
My heart is pounding
My stomach is flipping
My mind is racing
The sound of your voice
Can save my soul
The touch of your hand
Can stop my breath
Every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And never let go
You're the million reasons why
There's love reflecting in my eyes
I just wanna stay in this moment
Forever and ever
With every word and every smile
You make me fall in love
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Your children cry out to you
Songs of praise from their lips
In awe we fall to our knees
How can someone so great
Love someone so small
You gave your life
So that we could live
For now and ever more
We open our hearts to you
From young to old
Souls are yearning for you
We run to you with open arms
Forever we are faithful
Monday, August 18, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
1 week till camp!!!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Sheila pulled me and Russ aside after it was over and first thing I thought was "oh snap what did i do?!?!" I guess i made a face and she laughed and was like "you`re not in trouble". So we went and sat on the stairs to the stage. She started talking about how her and other leaders in our church, such as P. Scott, have been reading our blogs and poems. They said they were so inspired by what we wrote. That was sweet to hear just by itself..but it gets better! She then asked me and Russ to think and pray to God about writing a poem for Thanksgiving and then possibly getting together with photographers from our church to basically put pictures to words. I was so touched that they would ask us that..it really shows how even the younger leaders are recognized for their strengths. So I`ve already started thinking about that.
Another sweet thing that was thought up today was a possible Africa trip in spring of 2010, with just a few youth from our church. Me, Jay, Russ, Jesse and Matt were talking about it this afternoon. We want to raise $100,000 and then go to a small village in Africa that has nothing..and basically give them everything. Build them houses, a school, give them clothes, bring a doctor to get them medical help. Its in the works right now, but its gonna be awesome.
So I`m just gonna finish this post off by saying I have the best mom in the world. She has always been there for me and building me up into the young woman I am today. Without her...I don`t even want to think of where I`d be. I realize that I have not always given her the time and value she deserves. She is an amazing mother and I am so lucky to have her as mine. I love you Mommy, to the moon..and back! <3
Friday, August 15, 2008
I got to the summit just over half an hour late, but thats alright. I gotta sit with Sheila, which was sweet cause she's like another mom to me. The best part of the whole night was seeing Romeo and Darla for the first time in 10 years. IT WAS AWESOME!! Just before the second video started Romeo came over and was like "Sammy!" and gave me a hug. Then he went and told Darla and she ran over and hugged me. Then we had to wait until after the video to actually talk. They were both like "you were this big when i saw you last!" and "you're in grade 12?!?" haha it was great to see them again. And the videos were awesome, especially the second one. I laughed pretty hard and I got so much from it. So stoked to see what tomorrow brings!
On another note, SUMMIT TONIGHT!!! WOOOOOO! :P So stoked to see whats gonna happen and I am looking forward to hearing what these leaders have to say. And I get to see Romeo and Darla again, which is friggen SWEET!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
from night and its other dream
you carry day out of the dark
like a flame.
When spring comes north and flowers
unfold from earth and its even sleep
you lift summer on with your breath
lest it be losst ever so deep.
Your life you live by the light you find
and follow it on as well as you can
carrying through the darkness wherever you go
your one little fire that will start again
I read this for the first time the other day and immediatly fell in love with it. I've always liked Stafford's work, but this really got me. I have a friend who is dealing with some stuff right now and she's been losing faith. I showed it this and talked to her for a long time. I kept thinking about it after and realized I too have struggled with letting my "little fire" go out. But I also realized how easy it is to get it started again. With God as the lighter and by not letting yourself slip away and let it fire extinguish, it can turn into a wild forest fire..hypothetically, of course!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Ok so my title is Summer Knight...cause it sounded better than Dark Summer. So you can probably tell what the rest of this post is gonna be about. SUMMER!! And how it's gone by so fast! It's August 11th. A month from now I'll be in school, getting back into the daily routine. And to top it all off, I'LL BE IN GRADE 12!!! It's scary. People keep telling me I'm not allowed to grow up.."i remember you when you were this big!"..."you are growing up so fast.." And I am. I almost wish I was back in elementary school, with no cares, having fun. Not that I'm not having fun now. Cause I am..I'm having so much fun. High School has been the best years of my life so far. I have learned so much, inside and outside of the classroom. Middle School wasn't my favourite three years. I was with the wrong group and all I really had were my good grades..and I even got teased because of that. But in high school, I'm average in most my classes..and I love it!! But back to summer...its come and now its almost gone. It has been the best summer I've had in a long time. Camp was amazing..more amazing than last year. God spoke to me so much. My birthday party...also amazing. And then just hanging out with family and friends pretty much everyday is such a privilege. So many memories are coming out of this summer and I can't wait for whats to come. I am so stoked on this year because of all thats going to happen. New relationships, new discoveries, new adventure. I'm loving what God is doing in my life right now. I am so stoked on leadership this year too cause we're going to be doing so much more and getting closer to each other and God. It's gonna be good. I can't friggen wait!
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Sometimes you gotta run away so you can see who will run after you. Sometimes you gotta talk quieter just to see who's listening. Sometimes you gotta step up in a fight just to see who's by your side. Sometimes you gotta make a wrong decision to see who's there to fix it. Sometimes you gotta let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back. Believe in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle. You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy. Somebody who doesn't complicate your life. Somebody who won't hurt you. If they're stupid enough to walk away, be smart enough to let them go. Be who you want to be, not what others want to see. Forgive people, not because you're weak, but because you're strong enough to know that people make mistakes. Take chances, because you never know how great something could turn out to be. Certain things are just worth waiting for.
So I was just sitting here writing this and listening to worship songs and it really got me thinking. I love Jesus. He has just been so awesome in my life lately. At times I've felt like there's no reason to smile or to even live. But then I see this glimpse of light and I feel God saying to me that there's more to come. Theres a story I read about a lady who was dying, and asked her pastor to bury her with a fork. She explained this by saying how after meals people always say to keep your fork, and that means theres something better coming. So by keeping her fork, she's getting ready to go on to something even more spectacular than life itself. So I say to all of you, KEEP YOUR FORK. :P But seriously, this past year has just been amazing. It's definitly had its downs (R.I.P. Olivia, Eric and Floyd) but it's had it's ups as well. I have grown so much in myself and in Jesus. God has been doing a ton of stuff in my heart and I am so stoked on whats to come this year. I know it's gonna be good.
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there
Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart
Never say you're going to if you don't plan to start
Never look in my eyes if all you do is lie
Never say "Hello" if you really mean "Good-bye"
Never say forever because forever makes me cry
If you really mean forever then say you will try
I haven’t had the best life
There’s been lots to work through
My family’s been broken apart
And my hearts been torn in two
I’ve been called names
And I’ve been pushed away
But through all this hurt
I’m still gonna say
I’ll be okay
I'll pull you out when life pulls you under.
I'll be the sun when there's lightning and thunder.
If I could catch a rainbow I would do it just for you.
And share with you it's beauty on the days you're feeling blue.
If I could build a mountain you could call your very own.
A place to find serenity a place to be alone.
If I could take your troubles I would toss them in the sea.
But all these things I'm finding are impossible for me,I
cannot build a mountain or catch a rainbow fair
But let me be...what I know best, a friend that's always there.
Years may fly, tears may dry
But my friendship with you will never die
I close my eyes and I am gone
Into your arms is where I go
And in your arms is where I want to stay
My love for you, Jesus
Is like a burning fire
Just say the word
And I’ll go anywhere
Your spirit fills me up
Your grace overflows
I know that you are God
Forever you will reign
You laid down your life
You died on the cross
How can I repay you?
Thank you for everything you’ve done
I want to know you, Lord
I want to live by your side
We sing our songs of praise to you
But I want to do even more
Everyday, Lord, I live to praise you
Every minute, Lord, I live to love you
Anytime I need to sing, Lord
You’re the one giving me words
You are my inspiration
You the love of my life
I open my ears to hear your words
I open my heart to let you in
Everyone who knows you, Lord
Knows that you are great.
I want you, Lord
I need you, Lord
I love you, Lord
You’re here right now
You’re setting us free
Every time you're near me
My body starts to melt.
Every time I think of you
My mind turns to mush.
Every time you talk to me
My words just don't make sense.
And every time I look at you
Things seem to turn out right.
All of this is solid proof
Of how I feel about you.
The only down part is
You don't even notice.
I wish that you would look
And see who I really am.
Some people say you're right for me
And some people say you're not.
Some people think that I'm wasting my time
But I think you're worth it.
When will you open your eyes and see
That you're the only one for me.
All day long I think of you
All day long I wait for you.
I shouldn't want you like this
I'm sure that in the end I'll lose.
But Hun, you know what?
I'm willing to fight for your love.
Because even though I'm invisible to you
You're the only one I see.
And sometimes it can be hard
But I know it’s worth it
Sometimes we see each other
And sometimes we don’t
But I know you’re worth it
As long as I’m here and you’re here
Nothing can go wrong
And even though
There’s things holding us apart
We’ll keep on going
Cause that’s what love is
All we have to doIs stick together
And not fall away
All we have to do
Is pray to God
And ask for His strength
As long as I’m here and you’re here
Nothing can go wrong
And even though
There’s things holding us apart
We’ll keep on going
Cause that’s what love is
And babe, you’ve got the best of my love
Yeah so check it out and hope you like it.