Goodbye 2009 --- Hello 2010!

2009 was a good year, full of good stuff.

- Youth Retreat
- Guardian Angel Kick-Off Event (Variety Night)
- I got a sister-in-law
- Mexico Missions Trip
- Jazz Trip to Kelowna
- Final concerts
- Graduation
- Hair cut
- Relay For Life
- Nanoose Bay Pre-Teen Camp
- Nanoose Bay Teen Camp
- 18th Birthday
- Shuswap Lake family trip
- Got my eyebrow pierced
- Starting college
- Dyed my hair for the first time
- Consumed 09 - [K]NOW
- Passing my first semester of college
- Having the whole family home for Christmas
- New friends
- New memories

I went through a lot of changes this year. Not just physically, but personally as well. I learned who my real friends are. I experienced things I never thought I would. I made mistakes. I made triumphs. And I learned even more to trust God with everything I have and to just give full control to Him.

2010 will be a good year:

- Adam and Randy leading Thrive
- Olympics (I don't really have an opinion on this, but I guess it's good)
- Youth Retreat
- Variety Night 2010
- Mexico Missions Trip
- Finishing college and earning my Certificate in Social Services
- Nanoose Bay Camp (Pre-Teen and Teen)
- 19th Birthday
- Moving to Victoria
- Working full time, hopefully in a Woman's Shelter
- Starting to pay back my student loan
- More piercings?
- Tattoo
- New friends
- New memories
- And who knows what else?!

I'm excited for what next year will bring. I'm hoping for the best, but preparing for the worst. You never know when life is gonna throw you a curve ball, so I just gotta be ready. And I am ready. I'm ready to grow up more. I'm ready to do more. I'm ready for what Life has for me. And I'm stoked.

And I hope the same for everyone else. I hope that you're also stoked for what 2010 is bringing. It's gonna be good!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Farewell For Now - Jason & Kelsey

When I think of Kelsey, I think:

Encouraging
Beautiful
Hilarious
Stylish
Easy to talk to
Role model
Talented
Amazing singer
Great hugs
Inspiring
Unbelievable
Woman of God

When I think of Jason, I think:

Brother
Leader
Encouraging
Hilarious
Talented
Great hugs
Role model
Constant
Handsome
Amazing
Trust
Man of God

Kels & Jay,

You two have done more in my life than you will ever know.

Jay, I've known you for 10 years and you have always been there for me. Whenever I needed someone to talk to or just hang out with, you were always there. I know that I can come to you with anything and you won't judge me. From my parents divorce to losing friends to making mistakes, you've been there to help me through it all. You've been my Leader and Youth Pastor, but you've also been more than that. You've been my brother and my friend and I love you so much for that!

Kels, I've known you for almost 7 years and WOW has it been good! From camp to Mexico to Youth nights to just hanging out, its all been great! I've always been able to come to you for advice, whether it be about God, boys, fashion, or life. You've never judged me and I thank you for that. You have truly been a huge inspiration to me to not let anything get you down and to just keep going.

Both of you have been life changers for me. I'm just so awed by both of your hearts for people and God. You have encouraged me to be more and do more. You've always supported me in everything I do, such as Guardian Angel.

I'm so proud of you for listening to God and giving Him your YES. That takes a lot of courage and faith, which both of you have! It's going to be different without you here, for you and for us. But thats ok. God knows what He's doing.

I just pray guidance and courage over both of you. I pray that you will continue to trust in God and know that He will never leave you nor forsake you. I know both of you are ready for this and with God's help, you guys are gonna do amazing things on the mainland.

And maybe you'll be called back here to Courtenay or somewhere else on the island. Maybe not. Only God knows that and He will let you know.
So just have faith and courage and be excited! I know you are and that's great! I'm excited for you! God has been using you here and even though you'll be gone, your presence will still be here. You're still family and you're still a part of Thrive Youth Church, and you always will be.

This isn't Goodbye..this is just "See ya later"

No matter what happens in life, you two will always be in my mind, prayers, and heart.

I love you both so much and I will miss you!

God Bless and good luck!

Forever and Always,
Sam :) <3



Philippians 4:4-7

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."


Psalm 32:8-10

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you."

Do not be like the horse or the mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle
or they will not come to you.

Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the LORD's unfailing love
surrounds the man who trusts in him."

Rejoining the Blogging world!

Ok..so I'm gonna do a quick update since my last real post.

I guess I'll start with Grad.

It was AMAZING! My date and minuet partner was my good friend Percy.
It was a beautiful day! The ceremony was at the Filberg and everything went perfect. It was a sad but happy day.
After Grad was also amazing..so much fun! Full of dancing, laughing, picture taking, and just hanging out with friends.
"The girls are great, the boys are fine, we're the class of 2009"

Relay For Life! WOW!! I entered a team for Guardian Angel with a group of my friends and some family members. We walked from 7pm to 7am and had a ton of fun. It was cold but we found ways to keep warm...lots of blankets! In totaly, we raised about $2000 with Guardian Angel and won Best Youth Team, which was AWESOME!!

SUMMER! Ok...I'll try and keep this short.

Camp was awesome! It's a Christian Sports camp..two of my favourite things!
Pre-Teen: I was Head Coach this year of my team, The Blues! We called ourselves the Blue Bombers. My assistant coaches, Luke and Chelsea, and our whole team (about 15 kids) were so much fun to play with. We came in third place, which is great! We got lots of extra points for team spirit and sportsmanship.
Teen: Ooh Ah Da Bears! I love my team. I've been part of Da Bears for five years and they're like my family. We're the most loved team at camp because of our personality and how much fun we have. Unfortunately we came in last place this year, but that didn't stop us from cheering. AND I won the Sportsmanship Award for my team for the second year in a row! My birthday was the last day of camp and my team gave me a card and the whole camp sung me Happy Birthday. Nothing like having 400+ people singing Happy Birthday horribly out of tune. I could really feel the love!

My 18th birthday party was a lot of fun. Went to the river and then had a bunch of people over for a BBQ.

My parents, my sisters, the dogs, and I all jumped in our Motor Home and drove to Shuswap Lake and back for a family get-together. My sister-in-law, Jen, has some family who own a cabin by the lake so we stayed there for a few days. It was a lot of fun!


The rest of my summer was just full of hanging out with friends and making the most of the time I had left with some people.

School started in September. Woot for being a college student! I'm taking the Human Service Worker Certificate (1 year) in the Social Services Stream. I love my class. The people in it are amazing. I'm the youngest in my class and the next youngest is 25. The oldest is 63. I love it!
There has definitely been times where the work load has been tough. And there have been classes and discussions that were hard to get through. My class is all very emotional..we even have our own tissue box for our classroom!
I just finished my first semester yesterday when I wrote my English final. It's nice to have a couple weeks off now!

I'm stoked for Christmas! My brother and sister-in-law come home tomorrow for the holidays and I'm really excited to see them. We're gonna have a full house this Christmas! Pretty sure I have to give up my bed tho...hmmm...

My mom had surgery last week...got all her baby making parts taken out and had to get her pelvis realigned cause it was hitting her backbone. She's been home for a few days now and is doing really well. She's off work for about 6 weeks.

Well I think thats about it for now. My hands are getting tired! But at least I FINALLY managed to get an update! And hopefully I'll be more consistant with my blogging from now on!

Later Gators! And if I don't get on before friday, MERRY CHRISTMAS!

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON AND MIK!! YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! HOPE YOUR DAY WAS AMAZING! <3 <3

I feel like a broken record...

I keep saying over and over and OVER again that I'll get back on here and do some update posts and I WILL! Just not sure when :P I've just been so busy and it always slips my mind. I have about 10 minutes before I have to go to class, so I'll do a quick one right now and more later..hopefully.

So this morning was my Psychology midterm and it went alright, I think. I hope. I was really nervous going into it because even though I studied, nothing seemed to be sticking. But as I started the test, I remembered some things so I was alright. I think all in all, it went okay. I guess I'll have to wait and see the final result!

Now I'm heading to English to write an in-class essay analysis. I don't like analysing essays. Not fun. But it all depends on what the essay is about. I will hopefully be on later to blog again and will let you know how I did!

And until then...farewell my brothers and sisters and may your day bring you happiness and peace and all that good stuff! :)

It's been too long

Now, my title to this post has two meanings.
One is..it's been too long since I last blogged! And I plan on doing something about that. Seeing as I have to work in an hour, I can't do a lot yet. So I will get back on and give you some big updates as soon as possible. I promise!

The second meaning to this title, is it's been too long since I last saw Olivia. Today is the two year mark. I wrote a little letter to her, and I want to post it here.

Olivia Erica Johnson, Livvy-Jivvy, Flash Star, O.J.,

Wow...how did two years go by so fast, yet so slow?
I think about you everyday Olivia. I dream about you every night.
I just wish there was some way to see you again. To hug you one more time. To hear your laugh, even for just a moment.
I still see your smile everywhere I go.
I'm excited but nervous about this year and Guardian Angel. Please watch over us as we walk. Guide us through this year and on our journey to find a cure.
There's so much that has happened since you left. I wish we could get together and talk.
I miss talking to you.
I miss your smile.
I miss your laugh.
I miss your voice.
I miss your strength.
I miss you.
I wish I could bring you back. But I would never want you to be in pain again. You're so much better where you are. God is taking care of you.
I woke up last night at 4:37am. That's the same time I woke up exactly two years ago. I woke up both times unable to breath and felt sick. Then I felt as if someone laid their hand on my shoulder and I swear I heard your whisper.

In the words of Miley Cyrus (whom I know you love so much ;P)
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in awhile
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you.

And in the words of Sam Middleton,
Your smile is in my eyes
Your laughter in my ears
Where you used to be
There is a hole
And I may not see you
But I know you're here
Your absence has gone through me
Like thread through a needle
I dropped a tear in the ocean
When I find it again,
I'll stop missing you
If only I could go back
Back to that day
I'd say so much more
I'd give you one last hug
If only I had known
I try to let go
But it's impossible
I can't forget
But I'd never want to
Please be with me
Until my time because
We only part to meet again

Frick I miss you babe <3



Rest In Peace Olivia Erica Johnson
~November 20, 1991 - September 20, 2007~

For Jason

In English, I had to write a composition on someone who has helped me in my life. I wrote mine about Jason. Not sure if he remembers this day though..I didn't until I had to write this.

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Write about an event that changed your life. As I was sitting in English 10, reading that question, my parents’ divorce popped into my head. I turned to my friend Alyssa and told her. We talked a bit about it and then I started writing. But before I could even finish one sentence, I heard some of the other girls talking.

“I’m so happy my parents are still together.”

“Yeah mine are too. We’re lucky. I wouldn’t be able to live without both my parents.”

“Mhm. And if my dad was an alcoholic? I would be so embarrassed.”

I could feel my eyes begin to burn as the tears started coming.

“Sam, are you okay?” said Alyssa. She was looking at me as she put her hand on my shoulder.

“Yeah…I’m fine. I’ll be alright.” I lied, voice cracking. I couldn’t take it anymore and I left the class. I didn’t want anyone to see me cry. I went down the stairs and outside. Thankfully it was a nice day. I sat down for a bit, trying to compose myself. Those girls’ words kept playing over and over again in my head. I wanted to talk to someone, but didn’t know who. Then Jason came to mind. I went back inside and called him. He answered right away.

“Hello?”

“Hey,” I said. “It’s Sam.”

“Oh hey! How’s it going?”

“Not too good actually. Stuff about my dad.”

“Awe I’m sorry Hun. Are you at school?”

“Yeah.”

“Okay, I’ll be there in ten minutes.”

I hung up and then went outside to wait. Just like he said, ten minutes later he was pulling up to the front of the school.

A little about Jason. He’s my Youth Pastor at church. He’s about six feet tall, dark hair, brown eyes and quite fit. I always bug him about his “protective layering” over his abs. He has a great sense of humor and a huge heart. I’ve known him since I was eight years old, when my parents got a divorce. He’s been like an older brother to me. His family was like my family. His dad called me “the daughter he never got” because they have three boys. Never once has Jay judged me. I’ve had many people come and go in my life, but he’s been one of the constants. I can always count on him to be there for me, whether I need some encouraging words or a hug or whatever. He’s the kind of guy who can make me laugh when I don’t even want to smile. It’s quite annoying sometimes! But honestly, I don’t know what I’d do without him. He was there when Olivia died, arms open. He was the first person I told when Eric died. He was there when I found out Zachary had died. He’s always so willing to do anything for me and it’s such a great comfort knowing that.

“Hey thanks for coming,” I said, as I got into the car.

“No problem,” he said, starting the car. “Where should we go?”

“Doesn’t matter to me.”

We ended up going to a little café in Comox and then went to the marina. We talked about different things like school and youth group. We didn’t talk about my dad until we were sitting down.

“So, tell me what happened.”

I was crying before I could finish. I didn’t just tell him about English class, I told him about everything that had been going on lately. Things like drama with family and friends, struggling in some of my classes, fighting with myself and missing my dad but hating him at the same time. I was holding it all in and it was building up inside to the point where I felt like I was going to explode. When I was done, before he said anything, Jason stood up, pulled me to my feet and gave me a huge hug. Which, of course, made me cry more, but it helped. After a few minutes, we sat back down.

“There isn’t a lot I can say,” he said. “Except you need to trust in God and know that He has a plan and there are good reasons why all these things have happened to you. You’re still young and you’re going to face more trials throughout your life, but you will get through it all. And I will be right beside you, lending you my hand. I’m not going anywhere. I’ve watched you grow for years and I am so proud of you. You have such strength and faith and I love being part of your life.” He put his arm around me and smiled. And at that moment, as we sat there, I felt this sense of comfort. I believed Jay and knew that everything was going to be okay.

Since that day, things have happened to me that have rocked my life, in good ways and bad ways. I’ve lost a friend to cancer. I’ve lost a friend to a drug overdose. I’ve lost a friend to a car accident. We had to put my dog down. I’ve continued to miss my dad. I’ve fought with my friends. I’ve fought with my family. I’ve struggled with my faith and my self-confidence. But I’ve also made new friends. I’ve had so many great times with my family. I’ve gotten new family members. I created an organization to raise money for cancer research and have already raised over $1300. I went to Mexico over spring break on a Missions Trip, got my passport stolen, got a sunburn, played with some kids, painted some stuff, and had a great time. I got through my high school years and am graduating in less than two weeks. And through it all, Jay has been there just like he said he would be. He has been my crutch through the hard times and danced with me in the good times. Before he was my youth pastor, he was a friend, a brother. And even now, he’s not just my mentor. He’s not just my youth pastor. He’s still my friend and he’s still my brother. I am so lucky to have someone like him in my life. He’s been there for me when I wanted to completely give up. Sometimes I just think of him as another person in my life. But he’s more than that. He saved my life. He’s my angel without wings.

"You were the one who made things different; you were the one who took me in. You were the one thing I could count on; above all, you were my friend."
- Tom Petty

I Remember When...

I remember when getting high meant swinging at the playground.

The worst thing you could get from a boy or girl was cooties.

Race issues were who could run the fastest.

War was only a card game.

The only things that hurt were skinned knees.

Drama was a type of play.

The only things that could be broken were your toys.

Wearing skirts didn't mean you were a slut.

When you said wasted you were talking about time.

The only thing you smoked were the tires on your bike.

Life was so simple and carefree but the thing I remember the most was wanting to grow up.

I graduate in 10 days.

I don't know if I'm ready.

Half way to college!

So..I was awarded another bursary. $300 this time. With that, the $1000 one, the $250 one from grade nine and my Passport to Education, I have about half of my first year tuition paid. I'm pretty stoked on that!! And next Thursday I have my interview at the college for the program I want to be in...the Social Service Certificate.

So...ummm....

GRAD IS IN 17 DAYS!!!

Pretty excited for that..its coming so fast. I have my dress, my shoes and most of my accessories. It's going to be a fantastic day. I am praying so much that it's good weather, otherwise the whole thing will be in the Highland Gym and I'll only get four tickets. So pray for good weather!! If it's outside, there's no limit to who can come.

The Spring Concert is next week. It's also my final concert at Highland. It's gonna be amazing but sad at the same time. I may cry. But I'll try not to. All of the senior class is gonna chip in and the afternoon before the concert, I'm going to go and buy a couple bouquets of flowers for the teachers. Its going to be a great night. If you have the evening off, you should come! You won't be dissapointed. It's next Thursday at 7pm. But come a bit before to get a good seat.

Well that's all for now.
Later Gators!

I Miss You So Much It Hurts

Two of my best friend's uncle passed away on Tuesday. It's been really hard for them and their family.
It's also stirred up feelings in me. Not a day goes by when I don't think about Olivia, Eric, Zachary and Floyd. I miss them so much...I can't stop crying.

As most of you know, we got a puppy, Lexi. She's like a mini Floyd and every time I look at her I think of him. Every time I look at Sabre, I think of him. It's been almost a year.

Eric was going to be my grad date if I didn't get one. I wish so much that he was here and was still going to take me to grad. I miss his laughter...his voice.

This is my grad year, but it's Olivia and Zachary's grad year too. Olivia had so many plans for after grad, and it breaks my heart to think she won't be able to fulfill them. Grad at Highland won't be the same without Zachary there.

Everyday I wake up and wish that they were here with me. I would give anything just to see them all one more time. Just to hug them one more time. Just to tell them "I love you" one more time.
I love them all so much...the tears don't seem to wanna stop.
I know they're in a better place and I wouldn't take them out of paradise.

RIP <3

I Miss You Eric

Eric.... It's been a year and 5 months...I can't believe it's been that long. It's amazing how fast time can go. I still miss you every day. I just wish I could see you one more time...feel your hug one more time...hear your voice...just one more time. But I know you're in a good place now..and you're watching over all of us. I see your beautiful smile everywhere, and my heart skips when I see your picture. We only knew each other for a few months...but you were an amazing friend. You were there for me when I needed you. I still remember when we first met that day on the bus. I was upset about another friends passing and you sat down beside me and just put your arm around me. Then after about 5 minutes you said, "Hi. I'm Eric", with a huge smile. You made me laugh and it was then that I knew you would have an impact on my life. I remember you would sing to me in a horrible voice, but sometimes in a good one, and it made me smile and laugh. You would sing the most random ones like the Barney song...and ones you made up on the spot. "Oh Samyyy your hair is blonde. Your smile is bright. Ohhh Sammmyyyy". Then there was the time I was trying not to cry one day at school...and you took my arm and brought me to the stairs in between red and blue house..and you sang me my favourite song...."At Your Side" by The Corrs. I wish you could sing to me again. I miss you so much and I'll never stop thinking about you. ♥ ♥ ♥





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At Your Side -- The Corrs


When the daylight's gone and you're on your own
And you need a friend just to be around
I will comfort you,
I will take your hand
And I'll pull you through,
I will understand
And you know that



I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry
Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry
I'll be at your side
If you feel like you're alone, and you've nowhere to turn
I'll be at your side



If life's standing still and your soul's confused
And you cannot find what road to choose
If you make mistakes (make mistakes)
You can't let me down (let me down)
I will still believe (still believe)
I will turn around
And you know that



I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry
Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry
I'll be at your side
If you feel like you're alone, and you've nowhere to turn
I'll be at your side
I'll be at your side
I'll be at your side



You know that
I'll be at your side, there's no need to worry
Together we'll survive through the haste and hurry
I'll be at your side
If you feel like you're alone, you've got somewhere to go,
'Cos I'm right there
I'll be at your side,
I'll be right there for you
I'll be right there for you, yeah
I'm right at your side

Update..kinda

Well I'm tired, but I'm making myself blog. I want to do some sort of update over the last few weeks.

So on April 15, we had our Grad Fashion Show. It was SOOOO much fun. I love getting dressed up, getting my hair and makeup done crazy and going out on a stage and dancing to a fun song. Its just so much friggen fun! My group did our routine to "Freeze Frame". It was amazing..there are pictures on facebook and I'll be getting a DVD of the full show soon, so if you wanna watch it, let me know!
After the show, it was the grad campout, which usually results in everyone getting drunk. So me and a group of friends decided to have our own campout and went to a friends house and slept in tents in the backyard. There was four of us in a 2 person tent..it was quite warm :P
Then the next morning we got up nice and early and went to the school to leave for our Jazz Trip to Kelowna. Sadly, me and Nick were a bit late so we had to run laps around the bus..fun fun. I only have to run 8 though. The whole trip was a ton of fun, but it was sad cause it was the grade 12's LAST trip ever. Even on our itinerarys it said on the roomcheck on the last night "Final room check EVER for grade 12's". So us grade 12's planned a surprise..we got balloons when we were at the mall and filled my hotel room with them, then when the teachers came to do roomcheck, we threw the balloons and started singing "Heart and Soul". It was funny :P
It was sad to come home, but there were lots of good times for sure.
Can't think of much else exciting that's happened since then..oh..I didn't get Valedictorian. But thanks to those who prayed for me. I was pretty upset at first, but I'm fine now. The people who got it deserve it.
Well..thats all I can think of right now. If I remember more, I'll blog more :P

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Today is the 6 month mark of Zachary's death...I miss him so much. I can't believe it's already been half a year..it seems like just last week me and him were joking around. Grad isn't going to be the same without him. I never stop thinking about him...I'd do anything just to hug him one more time.

Nervous..Please Pray!

So again, I don't have time to do a big blog post, so I'm just gonna do another small one.

Right now I am working on my speech for tomorrow. I have been nominated for Valedictorian and I have to give a speech to my grad class to convince them to vote for me. I am really nervous, but I think I'll do alright. I've been praying a lot! So please pray for me to have strength and not get scared.

Thank you!

WOOT!

So I know I haven't blogged in awhile..life has been busy! When I have more time, I will get on here and do a big update..jazz trip, grad fashion show, youth stuff.

But I do have one big announcement!! I got a call tonight from The Canadian Daughters Society and I won a $1000 acedemic bursary!! I am so stoked on it!!


That's all for now..I promise I'll be on soon!

Life is Good

I was just sitting and thinking about my life. And I realized that I have a pretty good life.

I have a family who has always supported me, no matter what I've done.
I have friends who have always been there for me, even when I was a jerk.
I'm a Leader in the most amazing and best looking Youth Group in the world.
People look up to me and respect me..that’s a great feeling!
I started Guardian Angel and it’s doing SO well.
I have a good job in which I make money.
I graduate in two months.
I have a best friend who has been by my side since grade 6. (Andrea)
I have a fantastic Youth Pastor who has been there for me for years.
I now have a sister-in-law who loves my brother and I love that.
I may have lost friends over the last year and a half, but I know they're in a better place and watching over me.
I have a dog that is truly loyal and so much fun.
I have a church family who is just so amazing in every way.
I can play multiple instruments and that has made my life so much more fun.
I have teachers at school who have helped me through a lot...school related and life related.
Even though I continue to make mistakes, people are still there to help me.
People I don't even know look up to me and support me.
I'm Captain of an amazing Rugby team.
I am fortunate to not have any illness besides the cold or flu once in awhile.
I was able to go to Mexico for a week and serve.
I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach and a bed to sleep on.
My friends come to me and trust me when they need help.
I have the chance to go to college and have a career.
I have a God who loves me and has given me the best life.

Happy Birthday Mom, Dad and Grandpa!

Yes, all three of them have the same birthday. It's not a joke.
I love these people with all my heart..they are amazing. Here's a few reasons why...

MOM;

She feeds me

She loves me with all that she has

She's kept me from going down the wrong path

She's taught me so much about life

She's beautiful

DAD;

He saved my family

He's funny (most of the time :P)

He knows when to be serious and when to be funny

He taught me how to drive and lets me use his car

He brought Floyd into my life

GRANDPA;

He fixes things for me

He makes me laugh

He gives the best hugs

He gave me a nickname that has stuck since day one (Stormy)

He doesn't get mad when I golf bad :P

So those are just a few reasons why these people are amazing.

I love you all so much and hope you have a FANTASTIC day!

Please Pray.

A best friend of mine made a choice last night. I talked to him earlier and knowing he was going to this party, I asked him to make me a promise. That he wouldn't drink and wouldn't do something he'd regret. At about 11:30 last night, I got a text from a friend. "____ is drunk". My heart dropped. I felt sick. I asked my friend to keep an eye on him. By the favor of God, he got home safely. He emailed me as soon as he did, saying how sorry he was and how bad he felt. I told him that I was very dissapointed in him, but I am supporting him. He's changed over the last month or so...changed so much that it seemed like I didn't even know him anymore. We talked for a long time about it and I told him that I will always be there for him..that I'm not going anywhere. He said "I love you as a friend, Sam. You are one of my best friends and I'm so glad you're here for me". I just about cried right there. It was then that I realized he hasn't changed. He's just been struggling. I've been praying so hard for him..and even thinking about it makes me tear up. I was so scared that there was going to be an accident..it would kill me to lose him.
Please, if you read this, pray for him to have strength and faith. And pray for myself and friends to be able to support him.

Happy Birthday Mandy!!

Mandy, I just wanna say that you are amazing. You are like a bright shining star on a dark night. You never cease to amaze me and I am so proud of you. You have such a heart for God and you are just such a blessing to everyone around you. I could go on for hours about how much I love you. You are so talented..I love watching you on the worship team. It fills my heart with butterflies! Thank you for everything you've done. You're always there for your friends and you always know the right things to say. I've been through a lot and you've helped me through it all. My life would not be the same without you in it. You have changed me around and filled a part of me that was missing. I know you are going to do amazing things..you already are doing amazing things! I pray to God that we stay friends forever and that nothing ever happens to bring us apart. I will always be here for you, no matter what. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, someone to hug, or just someone to hang out with, I'm only a call away. No matter what the time is, I will be there. 2am..I'll be there. Cause you're worth it.
Never change who you are..you are Fantastic!

I lovers mcloven you to the mcmoon my mclover <3

I'll pull you out when life pulls you under.
I'll be the sun when there's lightning and thunder.
If I could catch a rainbow I would do it just for you.
And share with you it's beauty on the days you're feeling blue.
If I could build a mountain you could call your very own.
A place to find serenity a place to be alone.
If I could take your troubles I would toss them in the sea.
But all these things I'm finding are impossible for me,
I cannot build a mountain or catch a rainbow fair
But let me be what I know best, a friend that's always there.
Years may fly, tears may dry
But my friendship with you will never die.

Photography Group

So as some of you may know, I am part of Northgate's Photography Group. I think there's about 30 people in it now, but we haven't had everyone at a meeting yet. I've always loved taking pictures, but other than aiming at something, maybe zooming a bit and pressing a button, I really didn't know a lot about it. Even after just a short time of being in this group, I have learned so much. I've found out that my camera can do things I didn't know it could do! One day I want to own a nice camera..preferably a Canon, but I'm not too picky. At the moment, I don't have the money. And I won't for awhile because of schooling and such. But we'll see..as I've learned, God provides!

Each couple months or so, we have a photo contest. I missed out on the first one, but I entered the most recent one. And I tied for 3rd with Adam! I was pretty happy about that.

I am definitely excited to see where this group takes me. Like I said, I love photography and I love being able to learn more about it. Since it's getting nicer, we're gonna go out as a group and take pictures. And Adam said he'll go out with me sometime and let me borrow his camera, so that should be pretty awesome.

So to sum it up...Photography Group is fantastic..and..you should join!

Later Gators!

Camera I want! (Or something similar)

My photo from the Photo contest. It was taken on the beach in Mexico.

MEXICO

Where to start?!?
I'm really tired and don't want to type a lot, so I'll do this in point form :P

-Left the church after the 50+ group prayed for us..that was awesome.
-I didn't say anything for the first part of the trip to Nanaimo and when I said something, Adam turned around and was like "Sam, shut up!" It was funny :P
-Nothing too exciting from the ferry to the border. Stayed at Mer's aunts house thursday night and got up around 3 the next morning to start driving again.
-I stayed up with Ryan the next night..from about 3am to 9ish. Until the Mexico border.
-Driving through Mexico was awesome
-We ran into a Walmart for about 15 minutes and came back to a smashed window on one of our vans. Tommy's bag was stolen, Randy's bag was stolen. In Randy's bag was his laptop, his new camera and 9 of our passports. We spent hours in that parking lot figuring stuff out and then had to go to the police station to file a report. The passports stolen were mine, Ryan, Randy, Sarah, Tommy, Mikayla, Mercedes, Chelsea and Mel. We had to get Emergency passports to get home. More about those later.
-Got to camp late and went to bed.
-Sunday we went to two church services. The first one I shared my testimony. It was cool cause we had a translator (Sergio) and he was awesome! We got to pray for the people there too. Second service I helped with the kids. We did a short skit about the little boy's lunch that fed over 5000 people. Then did a craft and played outside. We did facepaint too. There was the cutest little girl there and her name is Samantha!! She gave me a kiss on the cheek when we left.
-Monday and tuesday we worked. We set up rocks along the road at camp and painted them white, painted the inside of one of the buildings, built a fence around Sergio's house so that his son, Enoc (SO CUTE!) could run around. And some general clean up around camp.
-Wednesday was our fun day. We drove to San Filipe and had lunch (which was so good!). We also got a couple guys to sing and play us a mexican song. It was awesome. Then we spent a couple hours at the beach. It was so nice!! Then we went back and went shopping. Bartering is so much fun! :P I got some sweet stuff. It got cold pretty quick and I forgot my jacket so Ryan let me borrow his. Then we had dinner (which was also very good!) and went back to camp.
-Thursday was back to work. We planted some trees which was lots of fun. We also got to destroy this cement igloo that was there. We smashed it with sledge hammers all day pretty much until it finally came down. We didn't get to finish it all tho. But that was a lot of fun.
-Friday we had to leave early so we could get our Emergency Passports. That sucked cause we had to cancel our Youth event. The 9 of us who's passports were stolen, plus Jason, sat in a conference room for hours!! We had to fill out papers and Jay had to sign for 5 of them (not me, Ryan, Randy or Sarah) cause they were underage.
-Finally got out and over the border. Both borders there was no trouble with the passports, which is awesome! FAVOUR! :P
-DISNEYLAND! Wow..too much to say so i'll just say it was AMAZINGLY FUN! It was Ryan's first visit and he was so stoked. I got him a "1st Visit" pin and he wore it proudly :P Everyone had tons of fun. Felt a little sick at one point cause I went on California Screamin' too many times :P
-For two nights we slept in the offices of Christina Williams church. It was nice, but not the comfiest
-Drove home..pretty much the same as the drive up. Kelsey stayed in LA with Christina. We stopped at In and Out Burger for lunch and it was the BEST fast food burger I have ever had!
-So yeah..not a lot happened on the drive home.

-Team time was amazing. We had it almost every night. On the late late nights we didn't. One night we stayed up till almost one telling our testimonies. We didnt get through everyones tho. I told mine in more detail and its the most I've told anyone there besides Jason. And yes, I cried. And I wasn't the only one! :P God is good.
-Meals were also amazing. The food was really good (minus some mushrooms :P) and we always had fun. One night my table was laughing so hard. I won't go into all the details why we were laughing, but most of us were crying and falling off chairs :P Ahhh good times.
-Almost everyone was sick with the cold at one point during the trip, including me..but it was still fun! :P

That's all I can think of to say right now. The whole trip was amazing. God did wonders as always and I'm so stoked to see what happens now. The trip definitly brought everyone closer and I got to know people better that I didn't before. I am so glad I went and I just want to say thanks to everyone who went for making the trip so great!

<3 <3

Pictures and videos will be on Facebook!!

Bon Voyage!

Yesterday was our first rugby game of the season. It didn't really count cause Vanier and Highland aren't in the same league (they're AAA and we're AA) but it was a good way for our new girls to see how the game is actually played. We did lose (not gonna say the score) but our team played hard and I am so proud of them! We have at least 6 more games this season.

So as you all know, we leave for Mexico today! It's gonna be an amazing trip and I can't wait to see what God is gonna do with us and through us. I gotta go finish getting ready, so I will say goodbye and I will have a big post when I get home!

Later Gators!!

God Will Provide

So as some of you may know, I'm going to Mexico on Spring Break. But the thing is, I don't have the money. It's $700 and I am not exacty rolling in money here. I have some, but at the moment, its not enough. Today at church during worship, we had a time of prayer. I sat down and started praying and asking God to somehow get me the money because I know He wants me to go. So as I was praying, Naomi was on worship and she stepped forward to say something. She said God had given her a picture of an open window right above, not far away. And everything we needwas just pouring out this open window. She said that no matter what we need, God will provide. Then Dave went up and added to it by saying that there is no window with the lock on the outside. He said that if that window is ever locked, all we have to do is unlock it. It's on our side. So I thought that was really cool because it was exactly what I needed to hear. I went up to Naomi afterwards and told her. She was so happy and she then began to pray for me. And she's not the only one who has prayed for me about this..a lot of people have and I am so grateful. I know that God wants me to go to Mexico and He will get me there.

Comedy Night a HIT!

I meant to blog Sunday night..but didn't. Then I was going to last night...but didn't :P So I'm finally sitting down to do this!
Sunday night was our Valentine's Comedy Night and it was a huge success. Lots of people came and lots of money was given. Every skit was HILARIOUS and everyone did an amazing job. One of the things people had to do was write a limerick. Lots of them were pretty good..then my dad got up. If you were there, you know what happened. He got me and Russ to go up on stage. It was something like this..

There once was a boy named Russel
Samantha he was trying to hussel
Love can be scary
So until they marry
Her dad will be flexing his muscles.

Let's just say my face was redder than a ripe tomato and everyone laughed harder than they did all night, along with clapping and cheering. Yeah...fun time.
Our final skit was a hit (hehe that ryhmed) which is good seeing as we only got the scripts that morning. BTW, great job, Tommy, for writing that skit (Northgate Idol).
Well my mom is needing the computer, so I should wrap this post up. But to sum up the evening, it was amazing! Awesome job to everyone who participated and a HUGE thank you to everyone who conrtibuted. We're that much closer to getting to Mexico!

23 DAYS!!

Later Gators!

What time is it? VALENTIMES!

Ahahahaha i love Teen Girl Squad :P

Anywho, so as you all know..today was Valentines Day. Me and my mom went to the mall this morning and I got my mask for my grad Masquerade on the 23rd. Then we went to bootlegger and I got some new stuff cause there was a huge sale. I got a really cute bag for $10! Well..my mom actually paid for it :P

Since we had to be at the church at 3, me and Russ went out for lunch. He met us at the mall to pick me up. With him, he had a beautiful bouquet of yellow roses! I was pretty happy :) We then went to Union Street Grill for lunch. (I'll warn you now, don't order their Cesar salad. All it is a a big chunk of un-cut lettuce with dressing on the top. But they were nice enough to give me a knife to cut it with...) We then exchanged cards and I also got him a promise ring..which turned out to be too big so I'm gonna go back and get a smaller size :P

Then we headed to the church to plan the Comedy night. I am very excited for the skits and the heart video..soooo..GET YOUR TICKETS if you haven't already..if you have...BUY MORE!! :P It's gonna be amazing!

Happy Valentines Day!

Later Gators!

My flowers :) <3

I Need Prayer!

This isn't going to be a long post. I'll start by saying I want SPRING! I'm tired of winter! And so are my cold feet!

Now for the reason behind this post title. As I'm sure you all know, I am going to Mexico during Spring Break on the youth missions trip. It costs $700. There will be some fundraising to cut down the cost, but not a lot. And I really don't have the money..I'm trying to work as much as possible..but so far, it's not helping a lot. I know that God wants me to go and I sure as heck wanna go! I've been praying a lot about this over the last few weeks. So if you could pray that the money comes and that God provides, that would be AWESOME! Thank you so much!

Also, if you haven't already bought your ticket for the Valentine Comedy Night, do so! $10! It's gonna be awesome and you'll be helping us get to Mexico!

Later Gators!

Moola UPDATE

So as you all know if you read my last post or were at the Variety Night last night, that we raised over $800. After the show was over, more people donated and bought snacks. That bumped the total up to almost $900. First off, my goal was to raise $500. Yeah..kinda blew that out of the water!
Anyways, today at lunch I set up a table by the office to sell the rest of the snacks and drinks (except the regular pop..we weren't allowed :P). After all that, plus a few more donations, I counted the money. Adding to the almost $900 from the night before, the total was....
OVER $1000!!!!!!!
Yeah...so I'm pretty stoked! I am so happy to see everything finally happening. My new goal is to raise $5000 to donate in June to the Relay For Life.
If you would like to donate at anytime to help me reach this goal, just find me at church or wherever. Or drop it off at the Highland office.
I will keep you posted on upcoming events!

Later Gators!

WOWZA! Variety Night a SUCCESS!

As many of you know, last night was my Variety Night. And it was a HUGE success! Around 100 people came to watch and they were so supportive. We had 15 performaces and all of them blew the crowd away. They were amazing! As I went up to close at the end, everyone started clapping and standing up. I wasn't sure what to do cause I had something planned to say..but couldn't really say it. I looked at my mom and she said "This is for you!" So I just stood there smiling as they all clapped and cheered for me. It felt really nice. Then I thanked a few individuals. As I was about to go off stage, my friend Sarah came out on the stage with a bouquet of beautiful flowers. She took the mic and said a few words about me and I'll admit I almost started to cry. Which, btw, a lot of people did during many of the performaces! As I was on the stage tho, I announced the estimated total of donations.
*DRUM ROLL*
Over $800!!!
PLUS, more people bought snacks after the show and some donated more money. So after all that, we raised around $900! AMAZING! Before I read the number, my mom handed me the paper and when I saw it, my mouth dropped open, which made a lot of people laugh :P.

So I just want to say thank you to all who performed and volunteered. You did an amazing job. And also I'd like to thank everyone who came out and supported. Without people like you, nights like this couldn't happen. I am so proud of everyone.

Here's a link to the article in the Echo

http://www2.canada.com/comoxvalleyecho/news/story.html?id=63aaca97-8fa9-4d4e-bd82-8476ad1e5817

Also, in the next night or two, there will be a story on it on A-Channel news (channel 12).

If you are still interested in donating to Guardian Angel, you can drop off your donations at the main office at Highland Secondary or you can find me...I'll be around. :P

Later Gators!

I think God is kinda Fantabulous

So I was going through my old emails and I was reading some funny stupid ones and some God ones. I was debating sending some God ones on, but didn't for some odd reason. Then I realized that this kind of thinking is exactly what has caused a lot of the problems in our world today. We (not everyone, but some) try to keep God in church on Sunday morning. Maybe Sunday night. And the possible event of a midweek service. We do like to have Him around during sickness. And of course at funerals. However we don't have time, or room, for Him during work or play. Because that's the part of our lives we think we can, and should, handle on our own.

May God forgive me for ever thinking that there is a time or place where HE is not to be FIRST in my life. We should always have time to remember all HE has done for us.
Jesus said, 'If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before my Father.
Not ashamed?
Yes, I do Love God.
HE is my source of existence and Savior.
He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I will be nothing. But, with Christ, HE strengthens me. (Phil 4:13)

This is the simplest test.
If You Love God... And are not ashamed of all the marvelous things HE has done for you...
Tell people about HIM.
Easy vs.. Hard
Why is it so hard to tell the truth but so easy to tell a lie?
Why are we so sleepy in church but right when the sermon is over we suddenly wake up?
Why is it so easy to delete a Godly e-mail, but yet we forward all of the nasty ones?
Of all the free gifts we may receive, Prayer is the very best one
There are no costs, but wonderful rewards.

Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.
Isn't it funny how someone can say 'I believe in God' but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also 'believes' in God).
Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing?
Isn't it funny how when you go to tell people about this, you might hesitate to tell certain individuals because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for telling this to them?
Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.
I pray, for everyone who is not ashamed to tell anyone and everyone, that they will be blessed by God in a way special for them.

I used to be scared out of my mind to talk to people about God because of what they may think of me. But now it's getting easier..and I get excited when I get the chance to speak to someone about God's amazing love. I challenge each and every one of you to strive for that same feeeling of excitement and a sense of a job well done.

Excited beyond belief!

Well first of all, a friend of mine commented on my last post and told me about this song, God of Justice by Tim Hughes, which fits this whole topic perfectly.
Here's a link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6k-knvCWUA

Now to other news....

2 DAYS TILL MY VARIETY NIGHT!!! OMGOSH X 10000!!

I just wanna say a HUGE THANK YOU to everyone who has helped and supported me with this. It started out as an idea and its great to see it becoming reality! I'm sure Olivia is looking down and smiling.
As some of you know, thanks to Pastor Craigs blog and if you read the Record, there was a small article on the evening. On Tuesday there will be a bigger article in the Echo, along with a picture. As far as I know, A-Channel news will be at the Variety Night. So I am pretty excited. Everything is coming together and its almost completely ready. Just a few more things to do.
So again, thank you so much for everything. And I also thank God, cause without out Him, I wouldn't have been able to do this!
So come on out to Highland Secondary on tuesday, Feb 3rd at 6pm to enjoy a great night of entertainment and contribute to a good cause. Entry is by donation and there will be snacks for sale, as well as a possible Open Mic at the end, depending on how much time we have.
Hope to see you there!!

Here's a link to a site that is advertising this.
http://www.harbourliving.ca/event/variety-night

Later Gators!

bothered?

So as most of you must know, at church and Youth group the last few weeks, out topic has been "Bothered?" We were challenged over the last couple weeks to be bothered by the issues in our world. And to get more and more bothered.
One thing that has always bothered me is Homelessness. I've really started to realize lately that I take so much for granted.
I get cold and I put another log on the fire or turn up the heater. Homeless people get cold and they try to cover themselves with rags or newspapers.
I get thirsty and I go to the tap. Homeless people get thirsty and they drink from puddles or just get dehydrated.
I get hungry and I open the cupboard or fridge. Homeless people get hungry and they beg for food or eat the scraps they have.
I feel upset, I turn to my family and friends for support. Homeless people get upset and most don't have anyone to turn to.
I get sick and I go to the doctor. Homeless people get sick and most die before they get help.
It makes me feel like crap to think about this. And it bothers me. It bothers me A LOT. And I get more bothered with it each and every day. Some people think that there's only homelessness in big cities. But there are so many here in the Valley. It pains me to think that when I'm done this post, I'll go get into my warm bed, while there's so many people who won't sleep at all tonight. Or will sleep on nothing but a cardboard box..an old blanket...or even the cold, hard ground.
So I challenge all of you...everyone who has the same privileges I have..get bothered by this.

My Savior Lives

So tonight I drove my sister to dance and then went to Mattchew's house for a bit. He's teaching me guitar. He tuned my guitar and then we worked on some chords. I asked if he knew Consuming Fire (of course he did!). So he wrote down the chords for the chorus for me. My "homework" is to learn it :P Just so you know, Consuming Fire is my ALL TIME favourite song. Everytime I hear it, I get goosebumps and definitely feel God's presence. So I had that song stuck in my head for most of the drive to pick Kelsey up and go home. Then on the way home, I was listening to Praise 106.5 (AWESOME radio station!) and a song came on that just hit me so hard. "My Savior My God" by Aaron Shust. I had never heard this song before, but it was amazing and the words just spoke to me. Then as I was listening, I had this press on my heart to pray for my friend Chelsea from the mainland. (Take note this happened around 8:35pm) I didn't know why, but of course I didn't object. So I prayed for a bit. When I got home, I went on the computer. As soon as I signed into MSN, Chelsea started talking to me. I could tell right away that something was wrong. I asked her if she was alright. She said "actually, no. My friend told me she's thinking of committing suicide. Then she signed off." I asked her when this happened and she said around 8:30pm. Kinda cool, eh? So me and her prayed together and I'm still praying now. I hoping that her friend finds peace and comfort. Please pray for her as well..and for my friend that she doesn't give up hope. Our God is an awesome God who does AMAZING things.

Later Gators!

Here's the link to the video of My Savior
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jazyUn4LMgA

This is her friend

Random Rant

Ok so Monday after school, me and my mom stopped by Superstore so I could check my schedule. While I was there I picked up my new work shirt, since all I have is the holiday one. I tried on the small and it was too small. Then I tried a medium and it was a bit big. I ended up settling with the medium. When I got back to the car, I told my mom about the sizes mishap. She said "well what about an extra small? No wait..that would be smaller." And I said "Why couldn't there be a size inbetween small and medium?" Then I began to think. Why are extra smalls smaller yet extra larges are bigger? But then why aren't there extra mediums? And if there was, would they be smaller or bigger than the regular medium?

Just a thought.

A Friend Indeed~Thanks Daniel!

As many of you know, in the past year and a half I have lost 3 close friends and my dog. Olivia Johnson passed away from cancer, Eric Sanderson from an overdose, Zachary Pearson from a car accident and Floyd from old age. It's been really tough to keep faith. Many times this year my faith has slipped and I've doubted God. But everytime that happens, someone tells me something or I read something in my Bible that brings me back up.
The latest faith slip was last week/weekend. They had just been on my mind a lot, and no matter how hard I tried to stay positive, the tears would come and I'd get angry with God. Encounter helped a lot. I felt God reassuring me all weekend. And on saturday night, Kelsey prayed for me and so did a few others. I was feeling better. On the way home I sat with Daniel on the front bench and we talked for a bit, which also helped. Then we fell asleep :P
But even after all that, I was still feeling...gah! I was trying to keep my mind off of it in school. First block today, Biology 12, not my favorite class. My phone was on the table and it started to vibrate. Which in our classroom, was really loud! I quickly grabbed it and put it in my lap. After a few minutes I opened my phone and had a message from Daniel. (Message)"Matthew 5:4 - You're blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the one most dear to you". I've heard this verse before, but this time it hit the spot. As soon as I read it, tears came to my eyes, only this time they were good tears. Tears of peace. I had to leave the class for a few minutes and my friend Meaghan came with me. It was great that one small verse made me feel so much better. Part of it was cause Dan read this verse and sent it to me. It was perfect. So thank you Daniel, for being the amazing friend and brother that you are!